Who Is On The Throne?

I’ve been doing a self-assessment evaluating the things that I’m motivated to do and the things I struggle to accomplish. Of course, I don’t struggle to accomplish the things I’m motivated to do like reading to my kids, playing games with them, and even correcting them when needed. I’m motivated to accomplish ministry tasks like this blog, a children’s Sunday school lesson or a meal to take to a friend. Yet I hit snooze too many times, eat too many snacks, and, most importantly, pray too little. 

When did my prayer life become something in which I lacked motivation? I certainly didn’t reach a point in life where prayer has become less important. The answer is the moment I started putting myself on the throne. My attitude reflects my beliefs. My attitude reflects that I believe I am ultimately responsible for everything that happens in my life, family and ministry. Wow! I would be in a heap of trouble if that were true. Though I know in my head that it’s not true, my actions reveal I’ve allowed that lie to settle into my heart.

So what am I going to do to rip out the lie? I can’t do any lie removal without the Holy Spirit. He has to move, weed, and till the soil of my heart bit by bit. My job is to surrender and to pray. First of all, I’m going to confess. The lie I’ve been harboring is a sin. I’ve already confessed this to the LORD and now I’m confessing it to you, my brothers and sisters in Christ. I take great joy in knowing “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” Praise God that I’m already forgiven.

Second, I’m going to choose repentance. Repentance goes beyond confession. Confession simply says, “I did it”. Repentance says, “I don’t want to do it again”. Repentance is doing a 180 degree turn away from your sin and towards Christ. The only way to accomplish this is to choose surrender. So I’m asking God to change me as I daily surrender to His discipline. That’s when God gets to work sanctifying.

Sanctification (becoming more like Christ Jesus) is a process that will continue all the days of my earthly life. In this particular area God wants to bring me to my knees, teaching me that I am not ultimately responsible for everything. One key to sanctification is not being “conformed to the pattern of this world, but being transformed by the renewing of your mind” (Romans 12:2). One of the ways Christ transforms our mind is by teaching us to “take every thought captive and make it obedient to the Lordship of Christ” (2 Cor. 10:5). Which means God will convict when I have a thought indicating I’m taking responsibility that doesn’t belong to me. Taking that thought captive requires recognizing that thought is not from God, repenting of it, and replacing it with truth.

Truth to replace the lie is found in God’s Word. His Word is the ultimate truth. So each time I believe I’m fully responsible for an outcome, I’ll remember 1 Chronicles 29:11-13.

“Yours, O Lord, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the victory and the majesty, indeed everything that is in the heavens and the earth; Yours is the dominion, O Lord, and You exalt Yourself as head over all. 12 Both riches and honor come from You, and You rule over all, and in Your hand is power and might; and it lies in Your hand to make great and to strengthen everyone. 13 Now therefore, our God, we thank You, and praise Your glorious name.”

1 Chronicles 29:11-13

Praise God that HE is on the throne…not me.